Rewind

So I wanted to rewind a bit and write about my pregnancy and Magda (in the early days!)

So for the first three months I was sick… really really sick. It was hard to try to keep down water. Yucky. I actually lost a lot of weight. At the end of my pregnancy I weighed less than I did a yr. ago. 131lbs. I got a lot of comments from people, but whatever, I was eating.

The rest of the pregnancy…aye. Heart burn central, my body for some reason doesn’t take in vitamins so well, so my bones/back ached, and I was anemic. Then the emotions…. I was the biggest cry baby. Id cry at any thing my husband would say to me. I didn’t rest at all, couldn’t sleep and peed every minute (literally). I was like “who says pregnancy is beautiful… really?” But then It was time to have Magda, well she was due June 14^th (my mom is June 17^th and my bday is June 7^th… so 3 generations of Gemini women…hahaha) then it moved up June 12^th, then my last doc. appointment (June 3^rd) And this is how it went: Dr.: So you will check into the hospital tomorrow at 6 Me: Wait, What, Why? Dr.: You are having your baby on Thursday Me: What? No I’m not ready, I haven’t finished all the shopping, it’s too soon isn’t it, I’m all by myself here, wait… WHAT?

So off we went to the hospital (my amniotic fluid was low so I needed to have her), and the next day:

June 5^th 2008 at 4:08pm Magdalene Aiko Clark was born 6lbs 4oz. I felt some pain, actually the contractions at first were killing me (started around 11am) but she is worth any pain. We went home the next day and my butt was up and running like as if nothing, although I wish I had rested. Anyway, it has all still been soooo surreal. I wake up and look at her and think “WOW, she is mine!” no taking this kid back. Ha. (I use to work at an elementary school and the parents would tell me that I was so good with kids why I didn’t have any of my own, I would say “Oh, I like how it is now, you know at 6pm your kids go home…”, mind you I was 20yrs old)

So we went for her to get checked up on the 9^th and poor baby had to go to the Hospital because she had Jaundice, a level where she had to get photo-therapy. I cried at first cause I didn’t know what it was and was like “noooo, I just had her, don’t take her away!” but our visit was quite pleasant, she didn’t mind getting a lil tan. We were there 3days. And about a week later she was a normal color. she looked like a lil bug or aviator. tee hee

Fast forward: 2 Months today. I still can’t believe it. Some days/nights are crazy, I have never missed sleep like I have now, and I’m still full of emotions… but also I get to be this kids mom. I just hope I do a good job. Yes I worry about me being a mom, the concept, the metaphor, the theory. It is such a mystery. A mystery I will slowly come to understand.

Magda: I can’t imagine doing anything with out you. Totally absorbed, I lose myself within you, your tiny body…. My perfect child! Magda today Enjoy